It bothers me everyday. I know that the majority of guys the SIZE I'm attracted to wouldn't even notice me. I've tried a trainer several times to try to gain weight to get the attention of bigger guys, but I just end up losing weight. At 5'10" & 145 lbs, I'm a seriously-hard-gainer. Most of the time I just wish I was attracted to really lean guys like myself so sex would not be such an improbability for me. Because of my muscle-fetish, sex has become more of a mental act than a physical act as I find ways to appease my need to be with really huge guys. My imagination plays such a big sexual role because real life encounters with bodybuilders are very rare for me, and sites like this are my only means of getting what I like. For me, there a key factors needed to reach climax: taller height (plausible), muscular build (bigger the better), alpha personality (confident and dominant), and growth (again, plausible and can be from past muscle gains or desires to get even bigger in the future). I genuinely feel that I was born with this fetish and it was not a learned attraction. I've had a strong attraction to big, muscular men ever since I can remember or could even understand it; comic book super heroes, etc. Therefore, I don't feel like I can change my sexual attractions to muscle any more than I could change my sexual orientation. Because of this needle-in-a-haystack dilemma, I've not had a long-term relationship yet. I'm pre-wired like this and it's one of the biggest sources of frustration in my life. So to answer your question, yes, it bothers me greatly.